Last weekend I tried to commit suicide.
Neither I have any formal reason, nor do I have any tension to die for.
But, I feel completely lost now.
Same noise, same clatter.
Room-office, Office-Room, Room-office.
Task, Defect, Deadline, Delivery.
Retest & Rework on our own code everyday.
Am not complaining, after all this is common routine of a Software Engineer.
Every day is a new day, but I am same old Nirnay.
I thought, I am in a Journey called Life
So to stop this Train, let’s pull the Chain.
But I didn't, I gotta 3 reasons to stop myself:
First,
My 500 S&W pistol cost about $3.00 a shot.
I said, yaar why would I waste a bullet for this selfish cause. I can feed many people in India with Rs 129.00
Second,
I am having a roommate called Akash
He is expecting his sister on that day; she is studying in university of Florida.
Next day is Rakhi,
I thought, If I commit suicide, I will spoil there Rakhi.
Third,
As soon as the Cold Barrel touches my warm head,
I looked up at my window, there was a beautiful rainbow
Oh! How beautiful it would be, I can't die with this view.
As Soon as I turned off my window and back to my seat........
I lost the velocity to die.
The word "NO" just spilled out of my heart, and I decided not to die
Life is a game, No matter how long and hard you search for a reason, life won't give you one....
Nirnay
nirnay@techvalens.com
www.TechValens.com
