I remember my early days when as a child, my mom's had to serve as my alarm clock more than once. My mom would come in and gently wake me from peaceful slumber. And whenever my mom asked dad to wake me up. Yep, He smacked on the ass extremely hard. lol. Dad sure could learn a lot from Moms!
My mom started with love:
Beta uthao. (Getup honey)
That was the first stage.
Then, she said, offcourse with love again:
Nirnay beta utho. (Getup my honey Nirnay)
Ya, she added my name this time.
Then 3rd round is without any love:
Nirnay utho. (Getup Nirnay).
And I know she is now getting wild on me, but I just ignored her again.
Then, all the sudden she get rudely awakened by a loud and screeching noise.
Kutte uth-ja (Getup you dog)
What a morning to start off.
But the morning are changed, Now I were rudely awakened (at the ungodly hour of 8:15 am) by
either Alaram bell (the first thing I’ll think of every morning is: I hate my alarm).
Or, by my cell. You know, there are only 2 people on the planet that use my phone to reach me, my PM and best friend Salil (well, he is worst among all living organizm in this universe). So when phone rings, I dug out my phone from under the pillow. And as a normal person hold the phone to ear and go, “Hello?”. If its Salil then the only thing you can hear is; Oh, I must have pressed the keys wrongly. Sorry...... So he woke me because he pressed the wrong key! Grr!
And if its PM then the only thing you can hear is; Nirnay, I appreciate if you can make to the office early today. Early?? Grr!
Now no one’s gonna wake me up with love. Now no one brings me my cup of coffee every morning with just the right amount of cream and suger. No one back home waiting for you to come. I’m all alone. It’s like a fade to grey. I miss her every day.
I hate phone. I hate my alarm. I hate all alarms. WHERE'S YOU MUMMY!!
Nirnay
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Thank You ISRO.
Everyone knows moon has always been part of our life. First, for the bachelor guys like me who try to impress there GF by comparing her with Moon. And Second, what another better proof than the recent successful unmanned Indian lunar mission, Chandrayaan-1 (Sanskrit for mooncraft). My fascination began when I was a child. I used to try and draw the moon and reproduce its features, though not too successfully, since I am not an artist. Singing Chanda-Mama song with friends...
I was extremely thrilled when the government announced in 2003 that India was planning an unmanned scientific mission to the moon. And then after 5 year of long wait ISRO announced that the D-day could be October 22, if weather permits.
But Why I am so excited?
October 22 is not even my birthDATE. I share my birthDATE 22nd Jan with Ben Moody (Guitarist), Daniel Wayne Smith (Actor) and Ben Eager (Skate hockey player) and I do share there qualities too. But now I want to share my BirthDAY 22nd with this precious mission.
On the night of October 21, I was readying to leave from the office. I told my manager and team members about the launch and told that I will leave early today. This is the first launch experience from any space program which will be streamed live on internet. I reached at home, I did ON my laptop and wifi, It was 7:00 PM (EST) (4:30 AM IST) and launch of Chandrayaan-1 lunar orbiter supposed to beginning at 05:50 IST. Waooo I am on time.
At exactly 4.40 am, the moon which was so far hidden by the dark clouds came out as though it was inviting Chandrayaan. A little while later the stars too became visible. The sky began to clear and at 5.50 am there was an announcement saying that the weather was a `go' for launch. At 6.20 am the ignition sequence was initiated and at 6.22 am sharp, perfectly on schedule, the four-stage mighty PSLV carrying Chandrayaan roared into life, lifted off the launch pad and rode into the skies in a plume of yellow flames.
It was a majestic sight. In a few seconds it disappeared into the clouds though we could hear the sound for a while. Eighteen minutes later the moon-bound Chandrayaan was placed in its initial orbit and the mission was declared a thumping success.
Critics say that the "Chandrayaan Mission was a waste of money and resources". "We can save poverty, jobs, resources, development...", these.... that....
Guys, Chandrayaan mission is having enormous benefit, among there will be two kinds of distinct advantages. The first being the technology transfer and increase in the utility of technology. The experiments done on the moon for its soil and other chemicals would improve chemical research in the country and might lead to breakthrough ideas in chemical industry which will improve the livelihoods of so many people. The technological transfer advantage is the amounts of money or other value add obtained by sharing this technology with other countries. Moreover, it allows ISRO to grab the limelight and showcase it workhorse PSLV engine - which can be a lucrative revenue stream when it starts doing paid-for launches.
I am now ready to watch Chandrayaan-Returns (Chandrayaan-II) in 2011. Three cheers to the people behind the mission. Thank You ISRO.
I was extremely thrilled when the government announced in 2003 that India was planning an unmanned scientific mission to the moon. And then after 5 year of long wait ISRO announced that the D-day could be October 22, if weather permits.
But Why I am so excited?
October 22 is not even my birthDATE. I share my birthDATE 22nd Jan with Ben Moody (Guitarist), Daniel Wayne Smith (Actor) and Ben Eager (Skate hockey player) and I do share there qualities too. But now I want to share my BirthDAY 22nd with this precious mission.
On the night of October 21, I was readying to leave from the office. I told my manager and team members about the launch and told that I will leave early today. This is the first launch experience from any space program which will be streamed live on internet. I reached at home, I did ON my laptop and wifi, It was 7:00 PM (EST) (4:30 AM IST) and launch of Chandrayaan-1 lunar orbiter supposed to beginning at 05:50 IST. Waooo I am on time.
At exactly 4.40 am, the moon which was so far hidden by the dark clouds came out as though it was inviting Chandrayaan. A little while later the stars too became visible. The sky began to clear and at 5.50 am there was an announcement saying that the weather was a `go' for launch. At 6.20 am the ignition sequence was initiated and at 6.22 am sharp, perfectly on schedule, the four-stage mighty PSLV carrying Chandrayaan roared into life, lifted off the launch pad and rode into the skies in a plume of yellow flames.
It was a majestic sight. In a few seconds it disappeared into the clouds though we could hear the sound for a while. Eighteen minutes later the moon-bound Chandrayaan was placed in its initial orbit and the mission was declared a thumping success.
Critics say that the "Chandrayaan Mission was a waste of money and resources". "We can save poverty, jobs, resources, development...", these.... that....
Guys, Chandrayaan mission is having enormous benefit, among there will be two kinds of distinct advantages. The first being the technology transfer and increase in the utility of technology. The experiments done on the moon for its soil and other chemicals would improve chemical research in the country and might lead to breakthrough ideas in chemical industry which will improve the livelihoods of so many people. The technological transfer advantage is the amounts of money or other value add obtained by sharing this technology with other countries. Moreover, it allows ISRO to grab the limelight and showcase it workhorse PSLV engine - which can be a lucrative revenue stream when it starts doing paid-for launches.
I am now ready to watch Chandrayaan-Returns (Chandrayaan-II) in 2011. Three cheers to the people behind the mission. Thank You ISRO.
Thursday, November 06, 2008
One Wish
Dear God,
Please grant me the ability to punch people in the face over standard TCP/IP or HTTP.
Yours,
Software Engineer
The Square Root of Three
The most awesome way to propose the girl, clever poem I’ve ever heard.
The Square Root of Three
I'm sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three
The three is all that's good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine
For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic
I know I'll never see the sun,
as 1.7321
Such is my reality,
a sad irrationality
When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three
As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer
We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands
Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed
The Square Root of Three
I'm sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three
The three is all that's good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine
For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic
I know I'll never see the sun,
as 1.7321
Such is my reality,
a sad irrationality
When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three
As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer
We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands
Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed
Movie: Harold & Kumar
Nirnay
Ho kahin bhi aag, lekin aag jalni chahiye
Ho gayi hai peer (peer matlab dukh) parvat si, pighalni chaahiye,
Is himalaya se koi ganga nikalni chaahiye.
Aaj yeh deewaar pardon ki tarah hilney lagi,
shart lekin thi, ki yeh buniyaad hilni chahiye.
Har gali mein, har shahar mein, har nagar, har gaon mein,
haath lehraatee hue, har laash chalni chahiye.
Sirf hungaama khada karna mera maqsad nahin,
saari koshish hai, ki yeh soorat badalni chahiye.
Mere seene mein nahin, to tere seene mein sahi
ho kahin bhi aag, lekin aag jalni chahiye.
-Dushyant Kumar
Is himalaya se koi ganga nikalni chaahiye.
Aaj yeh deewaar pardon ki tarah hilney lagi,
shart lekin thi, ki yeh buniyaad hilni chahiye.
Har gali mein, har shahar mein, har nagar, har gaon mein,
haath lehraatee hue, har laash chalni chahiye.
Sirf hungaama khada karna mera maqsad nahin,
saari koshish hai, ki yeh soorat badalni chahiye.
Mere seene mein nahin, to tere seene mein sahi
ho kahin bhi aag, lekin aag jalni chahiye.
-Dushyant Kumar
Our memories tend to be too short and our greed too much
Date: January 22, 2008
Its my B'day today, Do you wanna say me "Hey Nirnay, Happy b'day".... better you should remove "Happy" out of it. Why?? Indian stock market has lost almost 20 lakh crore rupees (20,00,000,00,00,000.00).
The drastic fall in the value of Indian shares took everything from us and/or from our near and dears. Some of us will go down under and never be able to get back to the market again but most will survive. The pain will linger for many months, maybe years. Every such debacle has lessons for us and the sooner we forget them the more we suffer. My parents had never invested in Indian shares, they said it was unsafe. But I thought, after everything I heard on TV and in the news, that this was the right place to put my money. Now I'm not so sure.
As per my knowledge my maximum Orkut friends to whom I am sending this mail are s/w engineers or attached to some kind of IT firms. The normal saving after tax and expenses are not more then 20k-30k per month, and we keep investing our life savings in these markets, hoping to make a pretty profit, and the result..... God is punishing us for our arrogance.
People should ask themselves why stocks like RNRL, Ispat and RPL have lost 50-70% of their value. It is simply because their stock prices had snapped all connection with underlying business fundamentals, earnings and value. 1. So next time you invest do proper fundamental analysis.2. Futures are time bombs in the hands of inexpert and inexperienced traders, so keep yourself away from Future.3. Keep away from your friendly stockbrokers, who are damn metric pass or BA/BCom. Don't call them, instead do your analysis.
"OR"
Feel happy to put money in a bank FD and then wait for one full year to collect that measly 8%, then the stock market which give you 20% every month and but returns one day with sins and washed away your blood. Do remember 21-22 January 2008, as history will repeat itself again in the future.
Offfff, our memories tend to be too short and our greed too much.
-Nirnay
Its my B'day today, Do you wanna say me "Hey Nirnay, Happy b'day".... better you should remove "Happy" out of it. Why?? Indian stock market has lost almost 20 lakh crore rupees (20,00,000,00,00,000.00).
The drastic fall in the value of Indian shares took everything from us and/or from our near and dears. Some of us will go down under and never be able to get back to the market again but most will survive. The pain will linger for many months, maybe years. Every such debacle has lessons for us and the sooner we forget them the more we suffer. My parents had never invested in Indian shares, they said it was unsafe. But I thought, after everything I heard on TV and in the news, that this was the right place to put my money. Now I'm not so sure.
As per my knowledge my maximum Orkut friends to whom I am sending this mail are s/w engineers or attached to some kind of IT firms. The normal saving after tax and expenses are not more then 20k-30k per month, and we keep investing our life savings in these markets, hoping to make a pretty profit, and the result..... God is punishing us for our arrogance.
People should ask themselves why stocks like RNRL, Ispat and RPL have lost 50-70% of their value. It is simply because their stock prices had snapped all connection with underlying business fundamentals, earnings and value. 1. So next time you invest do proper fundamental analysis.2. Futures are time bombs in the hands of inexpert and inexperienced traders, so keep yourself away from Future.3. Keep away from your friendly stockbrokers, who are damn metric pass or BA/BCom. Don't call them, instead do your analysis.
"OR"
Feel happy to put money in a bank FD and then wait for one full year to collect that measly 8%, then the stock market which give you 20% every month and but returns one day with sins and washed away your blood. Do remember 21-22 January 2008, as history will repeat itself again in the future.
Offfff, our memories tend to be too short and our greed too much.
-Nirnay
Monday, October 06, 2008
My "Big Bang Theory"
Today I will cover “The Big Bang Theory” with live example of my accident. Students used to complain about any existence and evidence of this theory, So we start the lecture with definition:
The Big Bang Theory is the cosmological model (Cosmology is the study of motions of the celestial bodies - HUMMER) of the universe that is best supported by all lines of scientific evidence (police report) and observation (car’s rear portion & snaps).
Big Bang Theory - Common Misconceptions
There are many misconceptions surrounding the Big Bang theory. For example,
1. It was a giant explosion. NO, I was just reversing car with the speed of 5-10 mph.
2. People imaging the galaxies boundary just appear somewhere in the way. No, boundary wall exists at the apartment from decades.
Big Bang Theory - Evidence for the Theory
1. First of all, Hubble's Law in records. (my police record)
2. Second, Microwave Background radiation (my insurance premium increase notification)
3. Finally, the abundance of the "light elements". (abundance of my snaps on Orkut)
Big Bang Theory - The Only Plausible Theory?
Is the standard Big Bang theory the only accident consistent with these evidences? No, it's just the most popular one. Internationally renowned Astrophysicist George F. R. Ellis explains: "People need to be aware that there is a range of accidents that could explain these observations."
With the end of this lecture, feel free to shoot me with your questions on Big Bang Theory.
Nirnay
The Big Bang Theory is the cosmological model (Cosmology is the study of motions of the celestial bodies - HUMMER) of the universe that is best supported by all lines of scientific evidence (police report) and observation (car’s rear portion & snaps).
Big Bang Theory - Common Misconceptions
There are many misconceptions surrounding the Big Bang theory. For example,
1. It was a giant explosion. NO, I was just reversing car with the speed of 5-10 mph.
2. People imaging the galaxies boundary just appear somewhere in the way. No, boundary wall exists at the apartment from decades.
Big Bang Theory - Evidence for the Theory
1. First of all, Hubble's Law in records. (my police record)
2. Second, Microwave Background radiation (my insurance premium increase notification)
3. Finally, the abundance of the "light elements". (abundance of my snaps on Orkut)
Big Bang Theory - The Only Plausible Theory?
Is the standard Big Bang theory the only accident consistent with these evidences? No, it's just the most popular one. Internationally renowned Astrophysicist George F. R. Ellis explains: "People need to be aware that there is a range of accidents that could explain these observations."
With the end of this lecture, feel free to shoot me with your questions on Big Bang Theory.
Nirnay
Thursday, September 18, 2008
This was a terrible occasion in which so many innocent were slaughtered, for which I feel ashamed and I feel sorrow.
The Jallianwala Bagh Massacre, also known as the Amritsar Massacre, was named after the Jallianwala Bagh of Amritsar where, on April 13, 1919, British Indian Army soldiers fired and placed the fatalities at over 1000.
Like British Indian Army killed hundreds of unarmed-defenseless Indians, the unemployment rate soared to a nearly five-year high in August after continuous rounds are firing at major companies on employees. The U.S. economy has lost 6,05,000 jobs so far this year.
With almost unseemly prescience, the organizations see the people on the front lines as expendible cogs in their machine. They don’t need those parts for a while. So they will just off-load them and then replace them with new ones when they need them again.
After Jallianwala Bagh Massacre "Viceroy Chelmsford" characterized the action as "an ERROR of judgment,". And here CEO of big organizations characterized the action as "based on deteriorating global economic conditions". I don't have to be freedom fighter to know the reason of Jallianwala Bagh OR an economist to know the economy is weak.
In many cases the executives of the very companies cutting jobs and closing plants then go on to receive fat annual bonuses, often driven by the very cuts they made – and we wonder why people think badly of business?
I am not against companies making profits; anyone who doesn’t see profitability as an important objective of business shouldn’t run a company – profitability finances operations, including paying salaries. Unfortunately, business seems to hold a share in the good and shoulder the bad mentality towards their “rank and file” employees.
The Jallianwala Bagh is a cruel reminder of how hundreds of innocent Indian men, women and children were killed by General Dyer even after 89 years. I guess we will remember this time as well.
I am waiting "with hope" for the day when the executives of a large organization announce that they are taking a 50% pay cut and will forgoes all bonuses in the foreseeable future before they choose to close one plant and let one employee go.
Like British Indian Army killed hundreds of unarmed-defenseless Indians, the unemployment rate soared to a nearly five-year high in August after continuous rounds are firing at major companies on employees. The U.S. economy has lost 6,05,000 jobs so far this year.
With almost unseemly prescience, the organizations see the people on the front lines as expendible cogs in their machine. They don’t need those parts for a while. So they will just off-load them and then replace them with new ones when they need them again.
After Jallianwala Bagh Massacre "Viceroy Chelmsford" characterized the action as "an ERROR of judgment,". And here CEO of big organizations characterized the action as "based on deteriorating global economic conditions". I don't have to be freedom fighter to know the reason of Jallianwala Bagh OR an economist to know the economy is weak.
In many cases the executives of the very companies cutting jobs and closing plants then go on to receive fat annual bonuses, often driven by the very cuts they made – and we wonder why people think badly of business?
I am not against companies making profits; anyone who doesn’t see profitability as an important objective of business shouldn’t run a company – profitability finances operations, including paying salaries. Unfortunately, business seems to hold a share in the good and shoulder the bad mentality towards their “rank and file” employees.
The Jallianwala Bagh is a cruel reminder of how hundreds of innocent Indian men, women and children were killed by General Dyer even after 89 years. I guess we will remember this time as well.
I am waiting "with hope" for the day when the executives of a large organization announce that they are taking a 50% pay cut and will forgoes all bonuses in the foreseeable future before they choose to close one plant and let one employee go.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
"Srishti ke pehle Sat nahin tha"
"Srishti ke pehle Sat nahin tha"
Srishtee se pehle sat nahin thaa, asat bhi nahin
Antariksh bhi nahin, akash bhin nahin thaa
chhipaa thaa kyaa kahaan, kisne dhakaa thaa
us pal to agam, atal jal bhi kahaan thaa
Srishtee kaa kaun hai kartaa
Kartaa hai vaa akartaa
Oonche aakash mein rahtaa
Sada adhyaksh banaa rahtaa
Wahin sachmuch mein jaantaa..Yaa nahin bhi jaanataa
Hai kisi ko nahin pataa, nahin pataa,
Nahin hai pataa, nahin hai pataa
Weh tha hiranyagarbh srishti se pehle vidyamaan
Wahi to saare bhoot jaat ka swami mahaan
jo hai astitvamaana dharti aasmaan dhaaran kar
Aise kis devta ki upasana karein hum avi dekar
Jis ke bal par tejomay hai ambar
Prithvi hari bhari sthapit sthir
Swarg aur sooraj bhi sthir
Aise kis devta ki upasana karein hum avi dekar
Garbh mein apne agni dhaaran kar paida kar
Vyapa tha jal idhar udhar neeche upar
Jagaa chuke vo ka ekameva pran bankar
Aise kis devta ki upasana karein hum avi dekar
Om ! Srishti nirmata swarg rachiyata purvaj raksha kar
Satya dharma palak atul jal niyamak raksha kar
Phaili hain dishayen bahu jaisi uski sab mein sab par
Aise hi devta ki upasana kare hum avi dekar
Aise hi devta ki upasana kare hum avi dekar
Srishtee se pehle sat nahin thaa, asat bhi nahin
Antariksh bhi nahin, akash bhin nahin thaa
chhipaa thaa kyaa kahaan, kisne dhakaa thaa
us pal to agam, atal jal bhi kahaan thaa
Srishtee kaa kaun hai kartaa
Kartaa hai vaa akartaa
Oonche aakash mein rahtaa
Sada adhyaksh banaa rahtaa
Wahin sachmuch mein jaantaa..Yaa nahin bhi jaanataa
Hai kisi ko nahin pataa, nahin pataa,
Nahin hai pataa, nahin hai pataa
Weh tha hiranyagarbh srishti se pehle vidyamaan
Wahi to saare bhoot jaat ka swami mahaan
jo hai astitvamaana dharti aasmaan dhaaran kar
Aise kis devta ki upasana karein hum avi dekar
Jis ke bal par tejomay hai ambar
Prithvi hari bhari sthapit sthir
Swarg aur sooraj bhi sthir
Aise kis devta ki upasana karein hum avi dekar
Garbh mein apne agni dhaaran kar paida kar
Vyapa tha jal idhar udhar neeche upar
Jagaa chuke vo ka ekameva pran bankar
Aise kis devta ki upasana karein hum avi dekar
Om ! Srishti nirmata swarg rachiyata purvaj raksha kar
Satya dharma palak atul jal niyamak raksha kar
Phaili hain dishayen bahu jaisi uski sab mein sab par
Aise hi devta ki upasana kare hum avi dekar
Aise hi devta ki upasana kare hum avi dekar
Monday, August 11, 2008
India clinched its first ever individual Olympic gold medal in 108 years
I wear saffron, still, even sitting on my couch watching the Olympic game from home. Why?, well the saffron represents courage, sacrifice, patriotism, and renunciation. It is also the color of the Hindu people.
I left the room for a few minutes because I was mad and frustrated after Gagan Narang failed to make the final cut, but I left the television on. I could hear the announcers talking about how Abhinav Bindra qualifies for 10m Air Rifle final, and then the crowd got really loud. I got reacquainted with my seat on the couch for the rest of the game. His first shot of the final a 10.7 saw him move to the third place and by the time he was preparing to shoot his fourth, the Indian had risen to the second spot. But its the final shot and we need atleast 10.4, its tuff, and you know what, in the deciding shot he got 10.8.
As Bindra bowed his head to receive the gold medal from the Princess of Lichtenstein, a small country in central Europe, and the Indian national anthem was played out for the first time in this edition of Olympics, the shooter had his feet firmly on the ground, betraying little emotions.
My heartiest congratulations to Abhinav Bindra for winning the Gold Medal in 10meter Air Rifle event. It is indeed a rare feet. Abhinav richly deserves all the attention and felicitation.
Of course it is indeed a mater of pride for all Indians and I do not want to spoil the party, yet I am hardly in a mood to go on the celebration binge since One Individual Indian has won One Gold Medal, in an Individual Event in past 28 years!
I am Proud to be an Indian!
Nirnay Bansal
I left the room for a few minutes because I was mad and frustrated after Gagan Narang failed to make the final cut, but I left the television on. I could hear the announcers talking about how Abhinav Bindra qualifies for 10m Air Rifle final, and then the crowd got really loud. I got reacquainted with my seat on the couch for the rest of the game. His first shot of the final a 10.7 saw him move to the third place and by the time he was preparing to shoot his fourth, the Indian had risen to the second spot. But its the final shot and we need atleast 10.4, its tuff, and you know what, in the deciding shot he got 10.8.
As Bindra bowed his head to receive the gold medal from the Princess of Lichtenstein, a small country in central Europe, and the Indian national anthem was played out for the first time in this edition of Olympics, the shooter had his feet firmly on the ground, betraying little emotions.
My heartiest congratulations to Abhinav Bindra for winning the Gold Medal in 10meter Air Rifle event. It is indeed a rare feet. Abhinav richly deserves all the attention and felicitation.
Of course it is indeed a mater of pride for all Indians and I do not want to spoil the party, yet I am hardly in a mood to go on the celebration binge since One Individual Indian has won One Gold Medal, in an Individual Event in past 28 years!
I am Proud to be an Indian!
Nirnay Bansal
Monday, July 07, 2008
Last weekend I tried to commit suicide
Last weekend I tried to commit suicide.
Neither I have any formal reason, nor do I have any tension to die for.
But, I feel completely lost now.
Same noise, same clatter.
Room-office, Office-Room, Room-office.
Task, Defect, Deadline, Delivery.
Retest & Rework on our own code everyday.
Am not complaining, after all this is common routine of a Software Engineer.
Every day is a new day, but I am same old Nirnay.
I thought, I am in a Journey called Life
So to stop this Train, let’s pull the Chain.
But I didn't, I gotta 3 reasons to stop myself:
First,
My 500 S&W pistol cost about $3.00 a shot.
I said, yaar why would I waste a bullet for this selfish cause. I can feed many people in India with Rs 129.00
Second,
I am having a roommate called Akash
He is expecting his sister on that day; she is studying in university of Florida.
Next day is Rakhi,
I thought, If I commit suicide, I will spoil there Rakhi.
Third,
As soon as the Cold Barrel touches my warm head,
I looked up at my window, there was a beautiful rainbow
Oh! How beautiful it would be, I can't die with this view.
As Soon as I turned off my window and back to my seat........
I lost the velocity to die.
The word "NO" just spilled out of my heart, and I decided not to die
Life is a game, No matter how long and hard you search for a reason, life won't give you one....
Nirnay
nirnay@techvalens.com
www.TechValens.com
Neither I have any formal reason, nor do I have any tension to die for.
But, I feel completely lost now.
Same noise, same clatter.
Room-office, Office-Room, Room-office.
Task, Defect, Deadline, Delivery.
Retest & Rework on our own code everyday.
Am not complaining, after all this is common routine of a Software Engineer.
Every day is a new day, but I am same old Nirnay.
I thought, I am in a Journey called Life
So to stop this Train, let’s pull the Chain.
But I didn't, I gotta 3 reasons to stop myself:
First,
My 500 S&W pistol cost about $3.00 a shot.
I said, yaar why would I waste a bullet for this selfish cause. I can feed many people in India with Rs 129.00
Second,
I am having a roommate called Akash
He is expecting his sister on that day; she is studying in university of Florida.
Next day is Rakhi,
I thought, If I commit suicide, I will spoil there Rakhi.
Third,
As soon as the Cold Barrel touches my warm head,
I looked up at my window, there was a beautiful rainbow
Oh! How beautiful it would be, I can't die with this view.
As Soon as I turned off my window and back to my seat........
I lost the velocity to die.
The word "NO" just spilled out of my heart, and I decided not to die
Life is a game, No matter how long and hard you search for a reason, life won't give you one....
Nirnay
nirnay@techvalens.com
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Monday, June 16, 2008
My Life has changed !!!
Its 8:00AM and I am in my car to reach the office. I seat here in the same manner as I did a few years back in my college bus. Little did I know that things would change so much in 2 years; watching the transformation of a loud & bubbly person into a quiet professional. I wouldn't blame the professionalism for the change though. It is destiny, or may be you could call it life.
While driving I look out of the window watching people trying to catch up with "life". It's an hour's journey and the only company that I have is the RJ. I can't help thinking about the short bus journeys to college.. well it's a paradox to call a distance of 30 KMs "SHORT", but that is how it always seemed. A typical college day begins with all the familiar faces; the reasonless giggles, the loud laughter & the eyes of the professors who would watch on us as their prospective prey for the day. The pleasant memories of college are in itself good enough for me to drive till my office.
I now reached, and notice that it is time to flash my smile of acknowledgement to all the known strangers near my cubicle. A few of my colleagues greet me with their morning wishes and we exchange our pleasantries. Discussion jump to the weekend plan & I wonder what I'd do over the weekend. A few years back, weekend or weekdays didn't matter to me.
There is a time in life, where one needs to go ahead, leaving behind your friends and carrying along only memories. You do make new friends, but then you never get the old close ones. You do meet people who'd be so good to you that you could tell them anything & everything, but you do not find a person to whom you needn't say things.
As I sip coffee from the ubiquitous coffee mug, watching the rain, trickling down the tinted glass, veiling the scenic beauty outside, I tell myself, may be there will be a day when things will change, a recap of all the events & I just have to wait. May be there will be a day when I can go out in rain and leave behind my professionalism.
And I keep on waiting!
While driving I look out of the window watching people trying to catch up with "life". It's an hour's journey and the only company that I have is the RJ. I can't help thinking about the short bus journeys to college.. well it's a paradox to call a distance of 30 KMs "SHORT", but that is how it always seemed. A typical college day begins with all the familiar faces; the reasonless giggles, the loud laughter & the eyes of the professors who would watch on us as their prospective prey for the day. The pleasant memories of college are in itself good enough for me to drive till my office.
I now reached, and notice that it is time to flash my smile of acknowledgement to all the known strangers near my cubicle. A few of my colleagues greet me with their morning wishes and we exchange our pleasantries. Discussion jump to the weekend plan & I wonder what I'd do over the weekend. A few years back, weekend or weekdays didn't matter to me.
There is a time in life, where one needs to go ahead, leaving behind your friends and carrying along only memories. You do make new friends, but then you never get the old close ones. You do meet people who'd be so good to you that you could tell them anything & everything, but you do not find a person to whom you needn't say things.
As I sip coffee from the ubiquitous coffee mug, watching the rain, trickling down the tinted glass, veiling the scenic beauty outside, I tell myself, may be there will be a day when things will change, a recap of all the events & I just have to wait. May be there will be a day when I can go out in rain and leave behind my professionalism.
And I keep on waiting!
Friday, June 13, 2008
Vertical Scrollbar in Gtalk
You need to do the following to see all your google friends.
To see the Vertical Scrollbar in Gtalk follow the below Steps:-
To see the Vertical Scrollbar in Gtalk follow the below Steps:-
- Open your Gtalk client
- Click on the View button
- Uncheck show one page
Happy Chating
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