I need to Confess

The practice of Confession is conducted between a confessor and a priest, sometimes within a confessional box or booth. But I am using my blog.

Yes, its time I should come clean about my guilty pleasures. Some are cool, some are not. Some are masculine, some are not. Some are something I am proud to admit, some are not. These are the first 101 Confessions of my sin, or at least of sinfulness.

Confession #9
When I was a child, my dad would walk me to school. I would hop over the cracks. He told me “If I hop the crack I could break my knees”. I loved you so much. I made sure never to step on a crack.

Now I make sure I step on every crack.
But I know it won’t do anything.
I do it just to love you.

Confession #14
In my childhood, I punctured many vehicles in and around my apartment. Apology to all those neighbours who; didn't returned my cricket ball, said no for loud singing, showed me attitude, asked there kid not to play with me and said I am spoiled and a poor student too.

Confession #21
I loved many girls during my short life, but never said to anyone. I always guessed they didn't love me. It’s the worst feeling in the world to love someone and know they do not love you back. My heart still hurts.

Confession #29
In the childhood I poured two gallons of old gasoline into my backyard. I’ve done it after too... and after too. I know its bad for the environment but I did it. Actually, that gasoline was from our neighbour Thakur uncle's car. Because he told me not to touch his car.

Confession #36
I got lots-&-lots of friend in my life. Thank you to all friends, for being the best friends I could ask for, and for being random and funny and caring in your ways. You were such a best friend who single-handedly raises my family's suspicions about my sexual orientation. Please keep distance from me now.

Confession #41
I miss one summer, when she came to my neighbourhood for summer break, she used to stop-by with ice-cream or coffee or nothing at all, just for 5 or 10 minutes, just to say hello to me. Then she left after summer break. I don’t need ice-cream or coffee or 10 minutes or even 5. I just need Hello again.

Confession #50
In last few years, many times I wanted to kill myself & the reason I haven’t tried is because I know there exist some people in this world, who would kill themself if I did.

Confession #66
When I got admission in engg, it was like; once in my life im happy. I have started a whole new academy, new friends, and new area to explore. I have got more opportunities then I had before and do you know what? I am not really that bothered I have left my childhood friends behind. Yes this may seem self-centred but these new college people are so mature and with them I had chance to grow up and become an adult.

Confession #78
 To the last girl I liked; I wish I could tell her how perfect she is, and I wish it could be me who ends up being with her... I wish I could feel the warmth of her hugs. I think I love her.

Confession #98
I am lazy. I want a magic carpet or a genie in a bottle. So I wouldn't have to come downstairs to grab a coke or pizza from refrigerator.

Confession #101
Sorry to all my Project Managers for coming late everyday.

- Nirnay