Last weekend I tried to commit suicide.
Neither I have any formal reason, nor do I have any tension to die for.
But, I feel completely lost now.
Same noise, same clatter.
Room-office, Office-Room, Room-office.
Task, Defect, Deadline, Delivery.
Retest & Rework on our own code everyday.
Am not complaining, after all this is common routine of a Software Engineer.
Every day is a new day, but I am same old Nirnay.
I thought, I am in a Journey called Life
So to stop this Train, let’s pull the Chain.
But I didn't, I gotta 3 reasons to stop myself:
First,
My 500 S&W pistol cost about $3.00 a shot.
I said, yaar why would I waste a bullet for this selfish cause. I can feed many people in India with Rs 129.00
Second,
I am having a roommate called Akash
He is expecting his sister on that day; she is studying in university of Florida.
Next day is Rakhi,
I thought, If I commit suicide, I will spoil there Rakhi.
Third,
As soon as the Cold Barrel touches my warm head,
I looked up at my window, there was a beautiful rainbow
Oh! How beautiful it would be, I can't die with this view.
As Soon as I turned off my window and back to my seat........
I lost the velocity to die.
The word "NO" just spilled out of my heart, and I decided not to die
Life is a game, No matter how long and hard you search for a reason, life won't give you one....
Nirnay
nirnay@techvalens.com
www.TechValens.com
Monday, July 07, 2008
Monday, June 16, 2008
My Life has changed !!!
Its 8:00AM and I am in my car to reach the office. I seat here in the same manner as I did a few years back in my college bus. Little did I know that things would change so much in 2 years; watching the transformation of a loud & bubbly person into a quiet professional. I wouldn't blame the professionalism for the change though. It is destiny, or may be you could call it life.
While driving I look out of the window watching people trying to catch up with "life". It's an hour's journey and the only company that I have is the RJ. I can't help thinking about the short bus journeys to college.. well it's a paradox to call a distance of 30 KMs "SHORT", but that is how it always seemed. A typical college day begins with all the familiar faces; the reasonless giggles, the loud laughter & the eyes of the professors who would watch on us as their prospective prey for the day. The pleasant memories of college are in itself good enough for me to drive till my office.
I now reached, and notice that it is time to flash my smile of acknowledgement to all the known strangers near my cubicle. A few of my colleagues greet me with their morning wishes and we exchange our pleasantries. Discussion jump to the weekend plan & I wonder what I'd do over the weekend. A few years back, weekend or weekdays didn't matter to me.
There is a time in life, where one needs to go ahead, leaving behind your friends and carrying along only memories. You do make new friends, but then you never get the old close ones. You do meet people who'd be so good to you that you could tell them anything & everything, but you do not find a person to whom you needn't say things.
As I sip coffee from the ubiquitous coffee mug, watching the rain, trickling down the tinted glass, veiling the scenic beauty outside, I tell myself, may be there will be a day when things will change, a recap of all the events & I just have to wait. May be there will be a day when I can go out in rain and leave behind my professionalism.
And I keep on waiting!
While driving I look out of the window watching people trying to catch up with "life". It's an hour's journey and the only company that I have is the RJ. I can't help thinking about the short bus journeys to college.. well it's a paradox to call a distance of 30 KMs "SHORT", but that is how it always seemed. A typical college day begins with all the familiar faces; the reasonless giggles, the loud laughter & the eyes of the professors who would watch on us as their prospective prey for the day. The pleasant memories of college are in itself good enough for me to drive till my office.
I now reached, and notice that it is time to flash my smile of acknowledgement to all the known strangers near my cubicle. A few of my colleagues greet me with their morning wishes and we exchange our pleasantries. Discussion jump to the weekend plan & I wonder what I'd do over the weekend. A few years back, weekend or weekdays didn't matter to me.
There is a time in life, where one needs to go ahead, leaving behind your friends and carrying along only memories. You do make new friends, but then you never get the old close ones. You do meet people who'd be so good to you that you could tell them anything & everything, but you do not find a person to whom you needn't say things.
As I sip coffee from the ubiquitous coffee mug, watching the rain, trickling down the tinted glass, veiling the scenic beauty outside, I tell myself, may be there will be a day when things will change, a recap of all the events & I just have to wait. May be there will be a day when I can go out in rain and leave behind my professionalism.
And I keep on waiting!
Friday, June 13, 2008
Vertical Scrollbar in Gtalk
You need to do the following to see all your google friends.
To see the Vertical Scrollbar in Gtalk follow the below Steps:-
To see the Vertical Scrollbar in Gtalk follow the below Steps:-
- Open your Gtalk client
- Click on the View button
- Uncheck show one page
Happy Chating
Monday, August 21, 2006
For the preparation of 70-536
For the preparation of 70-536
A very useful page about delegates vs events is here:http://blog.monstuff.com/archives/000040.html
A very useful page about delegates vs events is here:http://blog.monstuff.com/archives/000040.html
Thursday, July 06, 2006
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